So I have the Glee version of "Bills, Bills, Bills" stuck in my head (sorry Queen B!), but I am happy to report that I am not crying over the financial state of my bank account...just yet. I am moving into a new apartment a month early and sadly paying 2 rents at the same time starting June 1st. While I am freaking out (who likes seeing their bank account drained in such a huge way?) I am trying to stay positive and think how great this move is going to be for me. I'll have a huge beautiful bedroom I can decorate, a closer commute to work, a new area to explore, a quicker trip to my boyfriends apartment, and a change of pace. I am horrible with change but I am trying to remember to be grateful in all areas of my life. I am so lucky I can afford to live in this city at all!
Here's a recap of the weekend--it is really great to just see friends and remember how wonderful life is!
Why am I deciding to turn back to the blog I abandoned almost 1 year and 4 months ago...well, I have no freakin' idea. Seems crazy that so much has happened since my last post--do I even have a blog identity anymore? Well I am back to give it another go...here's to a second chance!
"I was half in love with her by the time we sat down. That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty, even if they're not much to look at, or even if they're sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. Girls. Jesus Christ. They can drive you crazy. They really can."
It's been a while and I'm the one to blame. Honestly, I have put off writing for so many reasons I can't even begin to explain...nor do I want to bore everyone with the details. Tonight (with the help and advice of a great friend) I realized that I need to think about what makes me happy, TRULY happy. I feel like I (like most people) get caught up in over-analyzing insignificant things, and these things make me upset. And when I say insignificant I mean reallyyyyyyyy insignificant. Did he call me back? Did my boss really appreciate how much time I put into that project? Why don't my friends get why I'm mad? Did I really bail out on the last set of chest presses...really dumb stuff, people!
What am I going to do? STOP and think what makes me happy and figure out what is really important to me! Do I care that he didn't call, hell no! There are plenty other guys out there and who needs this one! Do I want to get serious about something? Well, I need to stop bit**in' about it and get er' done! Sorry for the crudeness and vagueness but I just need to start living for myself again so this post is in honor of me and anyone else who is breaking free from the horrible freakin' chains that are binding us to the STUPID and INSIGNIFICANT things that mind-f*** us daily!
Double-fisting and I don't care!
**side note: sorry for the cursing--my only excuse...I feel strongly about this, whoops! ;)
This year has been such a whirlwind and I definitely wanted to take a minute and write down everything I've done/experienced this year. I have grown in so many ways, but the great thing is, I can totally see where I want to go and how I want to change in 2012. I haven't written down any of my New Years resolutions, but maybe I should just go with the flow and have fun this year...no pressure, only the excitement of great things to come.
Lived in a house on the beach with 3 of my best friends
Lost my wonderful Grandfather who truly inspires everything I do
Conquered my fear of running--no marathon sprinter but ya know...
Became ridiculously (in a good way) close with my little sister
Experienced a "real" Spring break--cruise to the Bahamas!
Graduated from college
Started dating--yes, actual dates
Got a job & quit it (Fashion PR), Got a job (E-commerce) & site went under aka lost a job, Got a job (Publishing/Magazines) and currently there
Went on a spontaneous trip to Spain
Had a "legitimate" NYE at Chelsea Loft, NYC
So that's not everything but it's the things I remember most when I look back on the year. I really need to start documenting things better...is that one of my new non-existent New Years Resolutions? Wishing everyone a happy and a healthy New Years! May 2012 be even better than 2011!